That title was no mistake.  Merely me mashing my forehead on the keyboard in the cloud of thoughts running through my head as of late.  It’s a good thing I am an exceptional drinker of alcohols and such.  Let me decompress… *farts* Letting someone back in your life can be a double-edged sword.  On the one hand, I still love her and it’s good to have her around.  On the other, I still love her and it’s hard to have her around.  Why are we forced to ‘choose a side’ on such a thing?  On anything for that matter?  Love is […]

Clinging is a bitch.  Whether you are the clinger or clingee, it’s a shitty situation.  The old saying ‘if you love something, set it free’ is stupid.  It’s stupid and also true.  But perhaps it is less of a ‘set it free’ and more of a become aware of what it is you are scared of by letting go.  Figuring out why we do things is always the first step in finding any sort of resolution. If you need some assistance, let me tell you this.  Once you realize and accept that you have no control over anything but your […]

Illusion   There is nothing worse than a little emo cherub.  I spent many months soul searching after she broke my heart.  What I felt for her was so real.  She made me feel loved in a way no one else ever  had.  As her feelings became more and more withdrawn, I felt more and more betrayed, not just by her, but by love itself.  Feeling betrayed by a deep-seeded belief is a much more painful experience.  It has a way of leading you to question everything. Was her love for me ever real?  Is love real?  Was it created […]

Expectations   We are constantly fed images of an ‘ideal’ love, the ‘dreamy’ courtship, the ‘perfect’ wedding… the ‘happily ever after.’  Do or can these exist?  I say yes, but only with an open mind.  An open mind that doesn’t confine what it means to love or be loved is open to its limitless forms. The more you expect from love, the less it tends to be love.  It is naive to expect that what you see as love is how someone else sees it.  That doesn’t mean it is nonexistent.  We have a tendency to seek to make things […]

Hey you lot. It’s Cupid…and I am all fucked up. Well, my empty bottle may be one of the reasons but let’s not go stating the most obvious answer. Why not think a bit deeper. With every sip of my liquid courage, clarity focuses in and out and I think of my life. It’s been a crazy one, filled with boobs, booze, and YouTube. Being the alpha and omega of love has come with good times…and bad. I wish that all my tales where loving and happy but sometimes they just are not. Seems I’m on the losing end more […]

We worry about the most tedious of things, until an event so big happens it shakes us to our very core. It changes us completely and we see everything that is important and know our exact path. From the water we are baptized a new, without fear…without worry. Just a clear understanding that our journey is not done. Our heart is able to continue to love…our soul forever inspiring. What will you do with your time here?  We all have a purpose, and they are all big in the scheme of  the universe. Don’t be afraid! Run head first to your destiny and become legendary. The […]