Hey you lot. If you don’t mind, I think I’ll keep it pretty straight forward today. I’m just feeling a certain type of way. In case you can’t tell. I seem to have an arrow lodged in my heart. What? Fuck sake! No I didn’t stab myself…I’m trying to pull it out. It just seems to be stuck in there quite tightly. How it got there is not important, just know that it’s there and I can’t take it!
Have you ever felt this way? That feeling of wanting to let something go but your heart just won’t let you, almost like the arrow is permanently stuck in you? If your answer is yes, there is nothing wrong with it. You’re just like me…just means you “Love hard”. The only downside to this is when you want the love to disappear…but it can’t.
It’s such a weird moment to be so infatuated with something and then the world conspires to take it away, but you aren’t ready to give it up. Now you have to walk around with heavy thoughts that weigh on you. I want to give you a solution, but it is really just something time heals. Eventually, you learn to move around that arrow, or you at least break it so it’s not in the way all the time. Soon the arrowhead will fall out and it will all be an after thought…but for some…myself included.. that tip is permanently lodged in us.
I’m not even saying that’s a bad thing. Can kind of sting if you don’t have it at the moment, but I would never tell you guys to give up on something you love. It’s your love, keep it if you must. There isn’t really a lesson with this post.. just wanted you guys to know how I felt. If you are going through this with anything, just know that time helps and weirdly friends too (well not mines. Jeff told me to “man up”. I proceeded to slap the shit out of his dumb ass…
I know people can’t feel it for you, but everyone at least understands. Look in the mirror, smile and shit and be grateful for what you do have. Who knows, it may come back. Even if not, you will be focusing on how great you are to mind too much. At the end of the day, it’s all about truly being happy with you..
PS- I’m sorry if my wit was lacking…but I have a fucking arrow in my chest!!! How about you stop listening to me for a second and help get this crap outta me… You know what, eff it. Let’s just go get some drinks. I’ll tell you what happened then… Come on slowpoke.